i'm finally back to xanga, after 2 1/2 months.  it's not that i didn't want to write anything.  i just had too much to write about.  i'll just rewind a bit to the new york trip.

it's always good to be back in this city.  there are so many things to re-visit and of course, many friends to see again.  i feel that i'm still familiar to it, and yet, i can still feel some subtle changes here and there.  it's this distant, intriguing feeling that makes me want to go back.  (yes, i tend to escape from the real world!)

bel's wedding (okay i know she's almost coming back to hong kong, but still wanted to say something): i really enjoyed it -- the program, the songs, the dinner.... :)  i'm so happy for you, bel.  also, i got to see some old-time friends there.  some of them have changed a lot (in a good sense), and some haven't changed a bit.  and then, i saw that i have changed a lot too.  anyhow, there's still a strong bonding among us -- it's the love of Christ that gels us together.

the sunday service: it was actually not a big struggle for me to get up on sunday after bel's banquet to go to ocm at 09:30 for the service.  i've wanted to be there for too long.  when i heard the music of the first praise, tears came to my eyes.  there were many good memories for being in the worship team.

finally vacation is here!!  here i come, my friends!

i've been working very / too hard days before this trip.  needed to prepare for the handover of work to my colleagues.  and needed to pack for moving out from my apartment after work.  soooooo exhausted....  i've moved back to hong kong for two years, and it's already the third time i'm moving.... i don't particularly enjoy packing and unpacking.

i have to get some quality sleep in new york, no matter what. 

we didn't have any typhoon hitting hong kong at all last year, and we are having the first one in 2006 -- now.  today.  the day that i'm taking the plane.  i hope the plane can take off before typhoon Pearl comes.  -_-"

counting down to the new york trip -- i'll be there in less than a month! wow!

work resumes after the Easter break.  didn't do much other than going to church, hitting the gym and sleeping.  why am i still so tired? 

watched "the incredibles" again on vcd last night.  i really love the puns about the superheroes' capes, although i liked "lois and clark" a lot too....

and after 10 years or so, "lois" has now become a "desperate housewife"....  how life has changed!

lately i have some trouble getting along with my boss.  i got very mad by his humiliating and unreasonable comments.  he made me feel like i am a slave in the company rather than an employee, and he's like the pharoah.  i thought, who does he think he is?  i am not going to give in this time.  i am not going to forgive him.

then, i went to the Good Friday service at church with fanny yesterday evening.  the theme was "God is Love".  the pastor started by telling us that our heart is a piggy bank of love.  he put the love of acceptance, love of forgiveness, love of understanding, love of sacrifice and unchanged love in the piggy bank.  the pastor encouraged us to forgive people around us "in the love of Jesus".  the sermon touched me deeply.  i realized how unloving i have been acting lately and i was reminded how God has loved me all along.

after the service, fanny patted me on the shoulder and said, "forgive him."  from that moment on, the anger was gone.  i wasn't mad anymore.  it's really amazing.  Praise God!

all right.  i've been away from this site for too long.  even my computer can't "remember" the address.  it's about time for me to come back.

a lot has been happening to me lately.  i had been searching for a new apartment as my lease is expiring in june.  almost closed a deal in wan chai, but didn't make it in the end.  thank God, i found a pretty neat one in north point in the end.... will move in around may hopefully before i head on to new york.  the apartment comes with a rooftop -- and finally, finally i'm really living on my own instead of sharing with my bro or roomie.  thank God (that's on behalf of those i've been sharing the apt all these years)!  :)

i have not been sleeping well these days though.  have been constantly waken up by SOMETHING at dawn.  i was waken by two mosquitoes at 5 in the morning just this past sunday.  waking up, i felt very itchy on the arms.  the first thing that came to my mind was, oh no, my rash is back.  last time i had to go to the hospital at midnight for the doctor.  don't make me get up at this uncivilized hour, God, i prayed.  not now....

i tried to wait in bed until 7 a.m. before leaving home for hospital, if i were really going.  but then i knew it wasn't the rash.  a mosquito called my name by my right ear.  i jumped out of bed and turned on the lights.  there it was, right at the edge of my bed.  i think i fed the kid really well, 'coz it could not fly at all, probably suffering from obesity.  i put it to "sleep" easily with a notebook, but alas, i saw fresh blood on the floor....

okay, then i went to bed again, hoping to get some more sleep.  then, the first mosquito's companion visited and hummed in my ear.  i was sooooo frustrated, turned on the lights, took out my notebook again... and again, blood on the floor....

sorry for being brutal in the first entry in more than a month... but when i was dealing with the horrible insects, a mandarin song written by a Christian musician came to my mind.  let me translate that and share it here....

"mas-kitto"

in a mid-summer night's dream, the tune stays in a silent night
your dance is light; your voice cuts across the dream
sometimes it's far and sometimes it's near; sometimes it's in the front and somtimes at the back; sometimes it's in the east and sometimes in the west
i can sleep no more and my nerves are tense

the mysterious mas-kitto, don't look at me in the dark
i know you are hungry, but don't pick this hour
the mysterious mas-kitto is unpredictable
if you have guts, come and fight against me at the headboard

there are so many nights that i can't sleep because of you
looking with my red eyes up till dawn, sighing
there are so many times that i ask God with frustration why He made you
this is a problem that i can never solve

the obnoxious mas-kitto, don't go after me all the time
don't you have anything else to do other than sipping my blood
the obnoxious mas-kitto, what wrong have i done
why do you always give me the itch and a headache

[Rap]
why, why stay by my side
why when i almost fall asleep
would you fly beside me and hum and hum
i can't get any sleep; i can't see you; i can't catch you
i almost get crazy
yo mosquito ~ yo mosquito
i just wanna sleep

....

believe it or not, it's in a cd of a Christian band in taiwan.  check it out here: http://origin-production.com/cds/cd_OPCD-05004_dnk_heaven.htm.

ahhhhh... feel much better now....